User Profile

I like... to write, rollerskate, read, knit and paint.

I am... very sarcastic, cold and heartless at times, I don't have much for a sense of humor, and I can get quite irritable. Generally, if I like a person I will be nice to them... If I feel like it.

With that said... I say what I feel, write what I think, and I don't give a shit about what other people have to say about it. So, in other words...FUCK OFF if you have a problem with that :-) Kthnx bye bye now...


Age: 21 22
Height: 5'8.5"
Current Weight:
Heighest Weight: 196
Lowest Weight: 124
Disorders: I used to do a lot of self injury (including cutting, burning, starving and punching myself) and have many scars from it (both physically and mentally), I have Severe Depression, Social Anxiety Disorder, PTSD, and I have suffered from Bulimia and Anorexia Nervosa on and off for about 9 years. I now consider myself ED-NOS. I was in the hospital once for malnutrition and dehydration but was not admitted. I've never been diagnosed with an ED. I still try to convince myself that I don't have any disorders as at, and that I'm 'normal'. I don't know who I'm trying to kid.




CW:
BMI:
HW: 196
BMI: 28.9
LW: 124
BMI: 18.6
STGW1: 136
BMI: 20.1
STGW2: 131
BMI: 19.3
STGW3: 126
BMI: 18.6
LTGW: 119
BMI: 17.6

I think about throwing up a lot...

I have major control issues...

I had a rough childhood/adolecence...

Talk to me, let's share our stories...

Starving helps me think more clearly... and that's stupid.














you can tell
from the scars on my arms
and the cracks in my hips
and the dents in my car
and the blisters on my lips
that i'm not the carefullest of girls

you can tell
from the glass on the floor
and the strings that are breaking
and i keep on breaking more
and it looks like i am shaking
but it's just the temperature
but then again
if it were any colder i could disengage
if i were any older i would act my age
but i dont think that you'd believe me
it's not the way i'm meant to be
it's just the way the operation made me

and you can tell
from the state of my room
that they let me out too soon
and the pills that i ate
came a couple years too late
and ive got some issues to work through
there i go again
pretending to be you
make-believing
that i have a soul beneath the surface
trying to convince you
it was accidentally on purpose

i am not so serious
this passion is a plagerism
i might join your century
but only on a rare occasion
i was taken out
before the labor pains set in and now
behold the world's worst accident
i am the girl anachronism

and you can tell
by the red in my eyes
and the bruises on my thighs
and the knots in my hair
and the bathtub full of flies
that i'm not right now at all
there i go again
pretending that i'll fall
don't call the doctors
they've seen it all before
they'll say just let her crash and burn she'll learn
the attention just encourages her

and you can tell
from the full-body cast
that you're sorry that you asked
that you did everything you could
like any decent person would
but i might be catching so don't touch
you'll start believeing youre immune to gravity and stuff
don't get me wet
because the bandages will all come off

and you can tell
from the smoke at the stake
that the current state is critical
well it is the little things, for instance:
in the time it takes to break it she can make up ten excuses:
please excuse her for the day, its just the way the medication makes her...

i dont necessarily believe there is a cure for this
so i might join your century but only as a doubtful guest
i was too precarious removed as a caesarian
behold the worlds worst accident
I AM THE GIRL ANACHRONISM
I AM THE GIRL ANACHRONISM
I AM THE GIRL ANACHRONISM
I AM THE GIRL ANACHRONISM
i am the girl...
i am the girl...
i am the girl...
I AM THE GIRL ANACHRONISM

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